“I've learned a lot this year.. I learned that things don't always turn our the way you planned, or the way you think they should. And I've learned that there are things that go wrong that don't always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. I've learned that some broken things stay broken, and I've learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones, as long as you have people who love you.”
What an incredible year 2016 has been. It's nothing like other years, I felt like I lived but I had difficult moments as well (midlife crisis).
June to August were life changing months. It felt surreal to be in New York City, a city that everyone talks about. When you're there, it's not hard to see why it's one of the most popular cities in the World. Spending 8 weeks in a city I've always wanted to go - now my favourite city - is a dream come true. San Francisco not only took my breath away (countless of times thanks to those damn slopes tbh), but my heart as well. I waited 2 years, making plans and then have them shot down couple of times, but I am thankful beyond words to my parents for finally agreeing. I still dream of the fog and streets till this day, literally. Being in Dubai and seeing so much sand for the first time!
Trust the timing of your life
Somehow, it still hasn't dawn on me that I've had so many cities crossed out of my bucket list this year. I wake up and realise that life is happening, and it is not a dream.
September and October were difficult months, as I had to readjust to being back home. And also since I've graduated, I had to start looking for jobs which just makes me more anxious. I had to think about which industry I would like to be in, if this job was going to be a career.
Then November came and Dale fell quite ill, which gave me a scare and made me rethink my life - what mattered and what didn't.
In 2017, I want to be able:
1. To say no to people, turn down certain job offers and not feel guilty about it. So many times I find it extremely hard to turn someone down especially if they are asking a favour. Not because I'm afraid of offending anyone, but just because it isn't the nicest thing to do. That said, I am not a saint but I don't sugarcoat the things I say and will never.
2. To get over past mistakes (sounds serious, but really isn't). I'm a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, but more specifically by the choices we make. The Universe throws options at us, but ultimately whatever choices we make creates a separate timeline.
3. To look at the bigger picture. To see and understand that there's more than the present. Tunnel vision is the worst mindset ever.
4. To be more comfortable in opening up to people. I'm not sure when, why or how I turned into an onion - layers after layers. I am totally ok with the fact that people will never know me, the entire me.
la vie est faite de petits bonheurs
Stay gold, xx
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